Wednesday, December 30, 2009

New Beginnings

Well, the children and I are living at my parent's home. Here I am at my age seemingly back at start but I am so full of hope. I am afraid too but we must change course.

I had wanted to leave Ohio for years but I was stuck in that wheel that just keeps turning. I was surviving. I was getting up and going to work every day. I was trying to put a roof over the children's heads and food in their bellies but I wasn't living. I had stopped dreaming. I had stopped paying attention to all that had inspired me. I was just putting one foot in front of the other and "making it." But every once in a while I would come across an old journal and I would read the writings of this strange adventurer who I had liked so much and I would sit and mourn her, mourn me.

When my husband left I was left with just my own flaws and inadequacies and I realized that I have so much to improve on. So that is my mission. TODAY I WILL BE BETTER THAN YESTERDAY.