Sunday, November 11, 2012
I've Got This
This is the part of the week when I feel that I have squandered Saturday, my biggest work day. I feel that way because if I don't have 10 loads of laundry done and a research paper written, if I haven't gone to the grocery store and figured out what the children are going to eat for the next two weeks then ahead of me I see a mountain - or rapids.
The truth is yesterday I pulled up and printed my reading for my online class. I made two attempts to begin my work but couldn't decide which format I preferred and finally I decided that I didn't have the background information to do my work without doing my readings first so I decided to start with those.
My lease is up in two weeks and I don't even know how to begin to think about where to move. I need to dedicate a day+ to that but I have so many deadlines looming and so many I've missed. In a moment I am going to go finish organizing my study space and settle into my work.... after I wash my hair. I still have to go to the grocery store.
This time of year I feel like an ogre. I wear jeans not dresses. I wear my hair in a ponytail and I don't shave but every once in a while I realize that I might actually want to be noticed. Today I will wash my hair, bleach my upper lip :-) and shave my legs. I will be a girl again. It feels endless and useless but for a moment it makes me feel confident. In the Spring I will make the real transition which involves waxing, threading and Barbara at the Dominican hair salon - I need to find a new salon though.
My exercise goal is to lose the wiggle on my arms by spring and decrease my overall body fat percentage. Zumba, I'm back.
... and still I need to steer my cubs to safety.