Today I want to go to the movies - alone - and eat junk food and laugh. I would then go to a restaurant and have a light meal and a glass of wine and I would organize my thoughts. I would list the issues in my life that need resolution and then I would think of every possible resolution.
This money would have to come from somewhere ... I would regret it tomorrow. Usually when I do this I take one of the children with me. It is a nice opportunity to bond.
This summer has been different than I had planned. It has been full of things to overcome. Sometimes get so focused on getting out of our poverty that I forget to be grateful for this moment and how fortunate we are to have a roof over our heads and food in our bellies. When I passed my last graduate class I just had this overwhelming sense of relief. I was so tired at the end that I just pushed. The next day the next class started. I am 4 classes from my Master's and it feels good. It felt good to get through the last one. I really need to put my shoulder to the grindstone, as they say.
I spend way to much time frustrated at the fact that things are not working as I feel they should but I have to admit I have't done all I can to train and motivate my children to do things as I feel they should be done. That is the plan for today.