Sunday, January 31, 2016

A Home for Us

I had never wanted to be a homeowner, never wanted to be stuck to a huge mortgage, never wanted to grow roots.  I love to travel and though that has been largely out of my reach since having my two sets of twins I always felt like I'd be able to make the miracle happen that would allow me to travel again, this time with my children. 

A few years ago  I lived a housing nightmare and I realized that renters have no rights.  What we went though then still affects me.  Since that time I have wanted a home of my own.  I discovered, however, that because of my student loan debt I am not likely to be able to buy a home any time soon.  I haven't felt at home in years.  I don't hang pictures on the walls.  I am responsible for making it look like I have not lived in the places that I rent while paying $1,550/mo, water, electricity... There are no tax breaks for me.  

I am resigning myself to the fact that home ownership is not going to be in my immediate future.  I hate apartment complexes.  People are too close and there is no room for a garden but I am contemplating returning to one for a year or so when my lease is up to pay off my car, reduce my expenses and create memories with my children.

For the next decade my home will be in Minecraft.    My 6 year old comes and takes my order and goes and builds me a home.  Our Minecraft homes have lots of windows and always a big garden.  The other day he told me that he made me a "world" (I think that's what he called it.)  He said that I would like it because it had lots of vegetables.  At that moment I realized that for now that would have to be enough and that he, the youngest, will probably be the first of my children to enjoy a room of his own.


No comments:

Post a Comment