If I cannot buy the house, where can I find a quiet place for me? I have to locate my blinders and put them back on to get through this school year. I'm so heavy hearted.
I wake up early to be alone and think and my precious little boy wakes up with me every morning and follows me around talking about soccer. I am a terrible listener. At first, I just put my finger over my lips and plead with him for silence. I sit on the porch and read and he brings a book and joins me. After a while, he starts talking again and I try to listen for a bit but the conversation is without end and I must again beg for quiet.
What I do know is that I am going to have to make some moves to protect me. I don't know what or how but there doesn't seem to be the slightest place in my life without people demanding something of me. Last year I would have a few minutes in my classroom to gather my thoughts. This year I will have to find someplace to think and be still. I will probably spend a lot of time in my car sitting, listening to podcasts and looking at the clouds.
I've spent my summer so far waiting and I need movement. It will require a plan.