Thursday, April 5, 2018
Lessons in Gratefulness - Plans for Change
So much of my good feeling comes from problem-solving. I must wonder how I would feel if those problems never arose. I'm sitting in a house that stinks and I can't find anyone to find what is in the air ducts and remove it. I'm 0-2. The recent wind storm blew down parts of my fence that I don't have money to get fixed. My pool might have cracked in the freeze as the water level is stagnant even after it rains. I still need to buy some furniture for storage... I need the duct in one of the bathrooms fixed as the concrete in it is crumbling. I need to put up real window coverings that I now know cost a fortune... and yet I recognize each of these challenges as an opportunity for another success, another up. ...even as I recognize, I pause as I think about selling my energy for the means to solve these probems. It feels a bit like a trap. With only one life to live it seems such a waste to spend all of one's finite resources on this type of cycle.